Vacation Without the Kiddos

When Andrew was just about two months old, Dave was asked to attend a conference in Vegas in May. We learned that I could go with him, and I jumped at the chance! I knew that it would be SO hard to leave our babies, but I also knew that I would probably be in desperate need of a break. Fast forward a few months and we are in Vegas!! And I was right about both statements. I needed this break more than I had even imagined that I would. Surviving that long winter with a newborn and a toddler sucked the life right out of me. I haven't felt like my old fun-loving self in a LONG time. But now that we are here in Vegas and I'm getting that break that I so desperately wanted? I miss our babies!!! I miss them so much that my heart feels like it's going to explode. They are in the best hands, our parents are doting on them and loving on them and Abby, especially, is probably in heaven with all of the extra attention. I know that this break is so, so good for both Dave and myself, and I'm trying to just enjoy the time away because I know that I won't get another opportunity like this one for a very long time!! I just really didn't expect to miss them this much. And yet, I read an entire book in a day and a half, and I've spent hours and hours at the pool soaking up the sunshine and having cocktails in the middle of the day. I took a bath AND a shower today, plus I got to blow dry my hair and leisurely put on my makeup. This time that I have all to myself, it feels so foreign now and almost selfish, in a way. I love being a mom more than anything in the world, but this break is refreshing. I feel like me again, and yet I feel lonely too, without my littles constantly by my side. A few more days and we will be home again, where two pieces of my heart beat outside of my chest. For now, though, viva Las Vegas! Time for a cocktail :)